Tomorrow’s FRIDAY!~

w000!!!! yay! I couldn’t be happier it’s the weekend. I can’t wait to SLEEP!~ I’m so tired… I’m gonna read a little then go to bed at like 9-9:30

~<3

OH! UWM was soooo much fun yesterday!

Add a comment March 6, 2009

So!!!!

My research paper’ll be easy. since I already have some of it typed out.

Theatre field trip tomorrow!~ Yay~ I’m so excited! It’s should be fun.

Well, I’m gonna go now, because Reaper’s gonne be on soon{YAY!}, and I want to persuade my mom to get me a lightbub for one of my lamps.

~<3

Add a comment March 4, 2009

Haha…

It’s a good thing I’m a theatre major! I have a field trip all wednesday, which is when my research roughdraft is due, but since all be at my field trip: I’m turning it in Thursday

So I better get cracking on it… because I have a month’s worth of notes to take in less than 2 days, and then write my paper. I like my topic though. it’s cool

…I gotta go take a shower now… Then off to bed…

heheheh my sis cleaned my room, cuz I paid her $15…She offered… and she needs the money, so I’M NOT a bad person. lol

~’night~

Add a comment March 3, 2009

More Procrastination &; Planet

So my dog is barking to death ’cause my sister is to lazy to play with her…So yea…

Alright now since like August I’ve seen this super bright star {which I now know is a planet…i think it’s Mars but I’m not sure… maybe Mercury? doubt it.} Anyways, so that planet was liek always in one spot, or at least very viewable. I kinda connect witht hat planet… i don’t know why, but I really like it… Maybe it’s just out of curiousity. Because I haven’t really payed much attention to it before, but now I find myself everyday looking at it, and just wondering. I could sit there staring at it for hours if it weren’t so cold…

I think I’ll clean my room now… and maybe Maddie can come over and stare at it with me {no homo lol}.

1 comment March 3, 2009

Procrastination &; Dream

I’m totally STILL procrastinating on my research paper. Hmm… well I had a really weird dream last night:

Alright so in my dream me, my cousins, and my sister, were gonna smoke weed, but we didn’t have a lighter, and so they thought that is they put a straw in it and microwaved it that it’d light… or something like that. Anyways, so then AJ showed up, and we went outside for some reason, and there were these giant ass ladybugs, that were trying to kill each other. And it totally freaked me out. Then AJ turned into a Ladybug, and squashed all of them, and I went back inside the house. Then, my aunt was like, “Why does it smell like weed in here? Everyone come here and get a glass of water!”

That was the strangest dream I’ve ever had. Comments?~

2 comments March 2, 2009

The World &; Yourself {A Rant}

So, you know how people are all like: you gotta learn to Love yourself! Have Confidence (although I do have confidence. And I don’t really think my self-esteem is that low, but whatev.)! Well, that’s kind of hard to do when the entire world is working against you. Like: you gotta be at least this size, and you can’t have a shoe size bigger than 11, and you can’t be taller than a guy. And crap like that. How are you supposed to ignore all that, and be fine with who you are? I mean like, when I finally started to feel cool with who I was, I tried on an XL shirt and it didn’t fit… well it did, but it made me look like a stuffed sausage. And even when you’re trying so hard to feel good about youself, and once you get to that point when you do: It plummets. But whatever. I gotta quit being bored is what I gotta do, I gotta make my life more entertaining and less dull. The only problem with that is that I don’t feel that there’s anyone who’d currently be willing to give up their free time to hang out with me {besides Maddie {love ya maddles}}. I don’t know… I feel really left out and behind on things, I hate being belittled just because I haven’t had all the experiences as everyone else. Because I haven’t had sex, because I’ve never had a boyfriend, because I’ve never been kissed, and all that makes me a loser, who has no idea what I’m saying or talking about, because I haven’t had those experiences I don’t understand.

uhg~

…thanks for reading my rant… I know it kinda slipped off topic, but I wrote what I needed to get out.

2 comments March 2, 2009

Thoughts &; Wishes

1) I’m listening to Beauty School drop out. haha… it totall goes with one of my sis’s friends.

2) I wish I was less bossy.

3)  I wish I was more modest.

4) I wish I was cuter.

5) None of that’s probably gonna happen, but I can try to be better about it, right?

6) I NEED TO STOP PROCRASTINATING!

7) I can’t wait ’til wednesday! fun fun!

8 ) I wish I could really confide in people.

9) I wish my friends could feel like they could confide in me, and open up to me.

10) I wish I’d loosen up.

11) I wish that I could make better conversation with people I don’t know so well, so that I could get to know them.

12) I wish I wasn’t as weird, and I wish that I had a really close friend, but recently I feel like I’m being pushed away.

13) I wish I could deal with all of this.

14) I’m gonna try to deal with this one at a time.

15) I wish that my friends would start conversations with me, rather than me starting one’s with them.

16) I’m starting to feel like I have to do everything myself.

17) I’m too effing insecure.

18) I want another clean start.

19) I want to hang out with all my old friends.

20) I want to be trusted.

2 comments March 2, 2009

I’ve decided to get one of these…

I honestly have no idea why I chose this theme, other than that I think it’s cute. I guess in this blog I’m gonna put my wishes dreams and recent events that’ve happened and some of my thoughts {kinda copying Maddie}.

So without further ado, here’s my blog!

Add a comment March 2, 2009