The World &; Yourself {A Rant}

March 2, 2009 ihartmusicals

So, you know how people are all like: you gotta learn to Love yourself! Have Confidence (although I do have confidence. And I don’t really think my self-esteem is that low, but whatev.)! Well, that’s kind of hard to do when the entire world is working against you. Like: you gotta be at least this size, and you can’t have a shoe size bigger than 11, and you can’t be taller than a guy. And crap like that. How are you supposed to ignore all that, and be fine with who you are? I mean like, when I finally started to feel cool with who I was, I tried on an XL shirt and it didn’t fit… well it did, but it made me look like a stuffed sausage. And even when you’re trying so hard to feel good about youself, and once you get to that point when you do: It plummets. But whatever. I gotta quit being bored is what I gotta do, I gotta make my life more entertaining and less dull. The only problem with that is that I don’t feel that there’s anyone who’d currently be willing to give up their free time to hang out with me {besides Maddie {love ya maddles}}. I don’t know… I feel really left out and behind on things, I hate being belittled just because I haven’t had all the experiences as everyone else. Because I haven’t had sex, because I’ve never had a boyfriend, because I’ve never been kissed, and all that makes me a loser, who has no idea what I’m saying or talking about, because I haven’t had those experiences I don’t understand.

uhg~

…thanks for reading my rant… I know it kinda slipped off topic, but I wrote what I needed to get out.